What I learned this weekend

colton

Every mother I talk to seems to struggle with accepting help from other people. I am guilty of this too. In fact, there is this strange voice inside your motherly head that tries to tell you that you’re not Super Mom if you accept help from others. I found myself arguing with that voice this past weekend.

I was in the bathroom of my in-laws cabin when I just lost it. I leaned my head over the bathroom sink, put my head in my hands, and started to cry. A pretty good cry too; the kind of cry where your freshly applied black mascara runs down your face, but at the same time the kind of cry where you try to stay really quiet so no one hears you.

I was crying for all sorts of reasons – morning sickness won’t go away, my clothes don’t fit, I didn’t hang out with my kids enough this morning, Colton won’t sleep through the night, I must suck, yadda yadda – but the real reason was, I was e-x-h-a-u-s-t-e-d. When I came out of the bathroom and my pity party, I could tell that everyone noticed something was wrong.

That night, my in-laws offered to take my kids to dinner so Ryan and I could have a night out (we were spending the weekend with them at the family cabin). Again, that voice came up and tried to tell me that I should be going to dinner with my kids. If it wasn’t my anniversary, I probably would have insisted that we all go together instead. It’s that stupid voice that doesn’t let you accept help.

When we got home, my in-laws had the kids bathed and ready for bed. Just as I was about to go to bed myself, my mother-in-law offered to have a “sleep over with the kids” in her bed. This meant that I could sleep for a full 6 hours, or 8 hours, or whenever my little heart desired because there wouldn’t be little footsteps approaching my bed before the sun rises to wake me up in the morning.

Again, that voice started to chime in and tell me that I was a horrible mom for not sleeping with my own kids. But before I could even open my mouth and argue, my husband shot me “a look” and my mother-in-law shooed me away. Thank the Lord for them because I slept until 7:30am … uninterrupted. I woke up feeling like a different person. I came downstairs to find breakfast being served, the kids in great spirits (and really happy to see me) and no one looking at me like I was a loser, lazy mom for sleeping in.

You see, nothing bad happened when I accepted the help. No one thought I was a horrible mom and I got the rest that I so desperately needed. And my mother in law? She got sleep too! Isn’t that always the way it goes? Kids are way more behaved and cooperative for their grandparents (or do grandparents have some secret parenting power that we haven’t learned yet?). Either way, I learned a lot this weekend. I learned to step aside more often and ignore that little voice inside my head that tells me I have to do it all. If not for my sanity, for the sanity of everyone around me.

Meanwhile, my husband is currently with both kids at Costco right now so I can blog, rest and just be in silence for a little bit. So yet again … I’m getting spoiled by others and I’m soaking in every single moment. Don’t judge. Here are some photos from our weekend.

Thanks for listening.

Pinetop

baby bump 20 weeks

My baby bump at 20 weeks. We decided on a name this weekend: Nolan Ryan Cross will arrive in this world September 2015!! To say we are excited is an understatement; we are over the moon! The kids have been calling him “baby Nolan” all weekend. It’s official.

Pinetop

Pinetop

You can’t tell from this photo, but her hat has kitten ears and a tail on it. Colton kept ‘petting her all day’ and saying, come here my little kitty kat. It was the cutest thing. She didn’t like that much, but Colton and I got a kick out of it.

Pinetop

Pinetop

Colton wanted Ryan to eat this leaf so badly. He kept throwing it into his face saying, “eat it!” Ryan actually took a bite out of it and then I thought he was going to panic because he started spitting it out so frantically. It’s just a leaf, babe. You will survive.

Cabin

Until next time.

Seven Years Strong

scottsdale wedding

scottsdale wedding

Little did we know that this exit was just the beginning.

Today we celebrate 7 years of marriage! People always tell you life goes by so fast and I’m pretty sure they are right. We’re in Pinetop, Arizona this weekend spending our free time relaxing at the cabin and we managed to find the only restaurant in town that takes reservations (also see: kind of fancy) and doesn’t have a kids menu. We are sold! We’ll be going there tonight, sans kids, to celebrate.

Dad of the year

I have no idea where Ryan gets his energy. Lately, Colton wakes up about 3x per night (12am, 3am, 4am) looking for us. Since we are clearly not sleeping with him in his bunk bed he comes into our room looking for us.

Ryan knows I’m 5 months pregnant and need my sleep so 9 times out of 10, he gets up with him, walks him back into his room and waits for him to fall back asleep. This happened Saturday night and when Ryan woke up Sunday morning, he was like a zombie. Exhausted, to say the least.

And yet, he somehow had the energy to take the kids to the park and teach them how to run the bases. The grande coffee helped, but still … I was walking very slowly (and tiredly) behind the pack. I am so lucky to have such a helpful, involved, ENERGETIC and amazing husband!

mom blog

mom blog

Looking up dad’s shorts was a bit more entertaining than posing for this picture.

mom blog

mom blog

I only laughed at this because he was okay. But you see the picture above? In this exact moment the kids were racing Ryan from third base to home plate when Kelsey decided to PLOW through Colton. She literally knocked him down and he went face first into the dirt. You can see Ryan literally freaking out as she does it. He was totally okay, in fact he came up to me and I consoled him … then he saw a dog walking by and got distracted and all was well. Oh, Kelsey. I keep telling her to wait because one day Colton is going to be twice her size and she won’t be able to get away with anything.

Avon, Vail, Beaver Creek

I just got back from all three cities (they are super close, but it sounds a bit more dramatic to say I toured the Rocky Mountain resort areas, doesn’t it?) I flew into Eagle Airport from Denver on the most turbulent flight of my life, but landed safely and in one piece. I was visiting one of our Starwood properties, the Westin Riverfront Resort & Spa and also had some site tours at the Ritz Carlton Bachelor Gulch, Park Hyatt, Vail Cascade and Vail Marriott.

westin beaver creek resort

High of 66 and sunny. My kind of winter.

westin beaver creek resort

The tacos at Maya (at the Westin) were perfection!

westin beaver creek resort

westin beaver creek resort
Post meeting, my colleague and I took to the Westin firepits for s’mores and mountain views.

ritz carlton bachelor gultch
We checked out the competition, the Ritz is a beautiful ski-in/ski-out resort. Truly the perfect spot for Après ski.

westin beaver creek resort
Oh, and the guacamole at Maya … that was heaven too, need I forget. Even though I’m getting more pregnant every day, I love the travel aspect of my job. I get to see new places, meet new faces, and travel to places that I wouldn’t typically get to visit. Next time, I’m bringing my family. My kids would absolutely love the Westin Riverfront Resort and this beautiful resort town.

Happy Easter!

Easter Flowers

easter many hats of a mom

Easter Bundt Cake

Easter family

Easter eggs

Easter

Easter kids

Easter Sunday is so special to our faith, it’s the moment when Christianity really takes flight. We are getting more and more immersed in story of the resurrection around here. We are a faithful family – one who understands (and believes!) in the miraculous holiday that makes up Easter. He is risen. He is risen, indeed! Happy Easter to you and yours.

Winter Events at The Phoenician

The thing about morning sickness is it takes you out of commission from doing anything other than what you have to do on any given day. That said, I turned on my camera for the first time in 10 weeks and found some pictures I forgot I had. These pictures were from a winter event at The Phoenician in Scottsdale. They do their “Up, Up, and Away” event every year and every year we love to take the kids.

phoenician holiday event

It’s free for the public (you don’t have to be a resort guest to enjoy the fun) and they have hot chocolate, cocktails for purchase, cookie decorating for the kids (and us too!), live music, and tethered hot air balloon rides. The kids and I went with my family and rang in the holidays … Arizona style. We ended the night with huge burgers and s’mores at Relish Burger Bistro.

Phoenician Holiday Event

phoenician holiday event

phoenician holiday event
The glow from the sunset bounced off of Camelback Mountain as we watched the hot air balloons inflate. The kids were giggling with joy as they rolled down the grassy hills of the resort’s golf course. It was truly such a magical day and a great event to capture the essence of the season.

phoenician holiday event

phoenician events

My little baker took cookie decorating very seriously. Colton … not so much. He just got icing everywhere! But that just means that mom and dad had to eat all of his cookie mess (oh, darn!). It was a cute activity for the kids.

phoenician events

Phoenician holiday events

I wanted to capture of photo of everyone. I succeeded! And just before the sun set. If you live in Arizona, try to attend this event next year. It’s worth it!

phoenician event

winter

phoenician events

Party of Five

pregnancy announcement

If you know me, then you know that I have always wanted three kids. I’m 4 months pregnant now with my third child (sounds so weird saying that) and I can’t wait to see what’s in store for us. We find out April 7th if we’re having a girl or a boy. Kelsey thinks girl. Colton thinks boy. Mom is torn. Dad secretly wants Colton to have a brother. I’m so excited to find out, I can hardly wait!

The White Mountains and Us

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona vacation

pinetop arizona

pinetop arizona
Ryan had the great idea last weekend to retreat to our cabin in the White Mountains for a little R&R. After 11 weeks of morning sickness, I needed the fresh air. I wasn’t sure how it was going to work since we’re in the middle of potty training Colton, but he was a champ! Only one accident.

In fact, they were freakishly well-behaved. On the way home, Ryan and I looked at it each other in awe. Only minutes earlier Kelsey said, “Mom, I think I’m going to take a nap.” Colton followed suit and Ryan and I got 1.5 hours of uninterrupted time to chat. Who could ask for more?

We skipped rocks on the lake, spent hours on swings, rolled down hills, took morning walks, roasted s’mores and just relaxed. Surprisingly, I have never felt better. It was like morning sickness knew I was on vacation and decided to stay home instead. I’m already counting the days until we can go back.

We are so lucky to have such a wonderful home away from home in the woods.