This is how life is lately. One minute she likes grapes, the next minute she hates them. One day I’m feeling refreshed, the next day I’m up all night. One minute I feel like, “I’ve got this”, the next moment Kelsey changes the rules and I have no clue what I’m doing. That’s how parenting is, I guess.
My hair has been falling out, I have bags under my eyes and I’ve had 6 migraines in one month. The doctor says I need to “calm down” and not worry so much. She says worry and stress can make a girl crazy. But, I have to wonder … does a mother ever stop worrying? I don’t think so.
We want to ensure our kids grow up strong and healthy. We do everything we can to keep them under our wing and teach them everything we know. We bend over backwards to make sure they are fed, clean, happy, loved, stimulated. It’s not easy, that’s for sure. But the rewards … oh, the rewards are just as I imagine heaven to be.
So, I guess one can always take Advil, get hair extensions and book a spa treatment. But I do need to find a way to relieve my stress, daily. I’m going to start working out more. Longer walks. Faster runs. More sit ups. I have to, otherwise Ryan and I are just going to be burning the candle at both ends. As for the doctor’s orders? I really doubt I will ever stop worrying about Kelsey. I think that’s part of the job.